This is me. I guess.

we're all just the same inside.

doggy is just adorable <3

sometimes i wish i lived in a box. then i wouldn't have to get out of bed to put out the light. then i wouldn't have to stop reading because of the darkness. then i wouldn't have to lie awake in the dark, thinking.

don't make me believe this, please. i'm far more impressionable and gullible than the common man

Lj IS ABOMINABLE.

Coughs.

i shall be peace loving mother teresa today and refrain from angry outbursts of indignation. well, lj's always screwy so i can always throw a hissy fit another day. i've just finished watching Silence today. And you know what I'm thinking... I'm thinking.. for someone who's always hating on taiwan drama, i sure am watching alot of them. Therefore i'm taking a break from them and shall not watch meteor garden under the misguided faith of trying to note Vic Zhou's improvements in acting throughout the years.  Erhem.

Anyway, I was rather affected by Silence. I think. In a way it helps me deal.

guowei's right of course: if you're dumb enough to fall for it, then you totally deserve it. shane dawson's adorable laugh'd work really well right now. "hmhm!"



do you feel bad? i wonder.

i just wanna be left alone. like a cow grazing in a field; minding it's own business. without wolves. or hurricanes.

i reckon the reason i've ceased to love my nephew isn't exactly because of my inability to deal with rejection. rather it is because i must have loved the epitome of perfection that was he, and his rejection defiled the illusion of it in my mind. no longer will he be perfect, no longer will he be sweet. he hath become human. and all love is lost.

OOH GUINEA PIGS CAN MAKE ADORABLE NOISES THAT'S SO UTTERLY COOL!

so it's true, then, that once you lack something in your childhood you lust for it the rest of your life. even if it's purely superficial, even if it's purely materialistic. i think we look at things wrongly sometimes - it's the end that matters, not the means. and the end is inevitably happiness.

Laychoo is the prawn beacsuse Qing doesn't eat prawns. Hazel is the christmassy gingerbread man. Qing is of course the french fry because she lvoes french fries. Veron is the green shirt. I'm the parsley beacuse.. well.. i'm smelly and disgusting? HAHHA. I RLY WANNA BE THE DISMEMBERED HEAD THOUGH!!!! Don't you think this pic looks like a crime scene from The Ninja Assassin? Which... turned out funny after the first gory scenes.

i want my nephew again.


or rather what he used to be.

first time im having to wake up so fucking early in forever i feel like a wreck. am so completely sick of life.

People always rationalize their fraudulent actions to convince themselves that they are not doing a bad thing. It's true.

I LOVE MY PRESENTS! I think my favourite is the book HAHAHA. Very excited to read it, but i've decided to wrap it all up first. Actually, my favourite could also be the cardigan because the fit is very nice and the design is rather wholesome I LIKE. My favourite might be the mascara it;s all wrapped up neatly in a bow and got this base coat thing whcih seems really pro leh! C'est belle! HAHA. OR OR OR OR OR the pearl necklace miao says they bought it because it looks like real pearls! 100 points for effort! The bag also very nice, I feel rather professional carrying it and the size is just right. ALL IN ALL I LOVE THEM! 

I srsly love the card the most of all. :)

AND CARLS JUNIOR KILLED MY APPETITE I HAD NO ROOM FOR SUSHITEI.

My cute little hamster died.

End of its suffering but... i didnt even get to carry it once last time.

nothing is forever, but there are a great many things that last a good long time. the latter, however, does not comprise painted fingernails. @#%&. damn sick of it.

i rather regret not doing enough, than doing too much. because in all finality they both end in failure, yet one requires far more effort than the other.

on a happier note, the chanel polish dries really quickly. thanks ziling :) oh and my sister's possibly possessed because she's displaying uncharacteristic humanity and cooking lunch for me GOSH you really lose some, win some.

it's not me.

and when you wake up the air's just a little colder, the skies're just a little greyer, the food's just a little blander, your head's just a little heavier, the colors're just a little duller, the jokes're just a little less funny - you get my drift. and it's not because it's raining and you've caught a cold.

it's always around the end of the year that things happen. what happened to the stability of internship? and thinking about it why is it any of my concern? that's the million dollar question. and i've a niggling feeling it's indignance.

pardon my sudden outburst. i've been a good girl all year, and i'm certainly not relapsing.

you know what, fuck people's ego. fuck their need for assurance, security and backup plans in case of eventualities. only the innocent ever suffer.

today while walking home, i was assaulted head-on by a sudden frigid gust of wind. so i decided to pretend that i was a famous explorer - shouldered my imaginary pack, bent my head against the gale and trudged forward with determination etched upon my face. then the wind went away, and took the explorer with it. guess what i'm trying to say is that these little pretenses and fantasies come to an end; one shouldn't invest too much in playing them out.

very often it seems that sometimes, you only want some things because you can't have them. come on, be totally honest. if you really could have it would you want it that bad? surely not. i know i wouldn't. then again, it could just be pride and ego. where you reckon you're far better and fully capable of obtaining the aforementioned. but that'd bring me back to my first point. it's a whole vicious carousel of people ruining other people.

at the risk of sounding totally pseudo-moralistic and completely annoying like adel does most of the time, i believe a person has the right to be left alone. people are completely dependent and easily affected by other people, therefore it is totally wrong to launch unwarranted attacks on a person's sensibilities and emotions. be it negative, by saying hurtful things, or be it positive, by being exceptionally nice for no reason at all. both hurt people. it's wrong. no matter the perceived strength of the target. i don't know what i'm driving at, but it's suddenly so imperative that i say it.

well thats the thing about first, or strong later, impressions - people just don't bother to revise them much. even if i were to change it wouldn't affect your pre-conceived opinion. ahh but likewise if you were to change i wouldn't notice either. and they say people stereotype to make things easier, so why does it seem to only complicate things?

i want tt poster too! laychoo too, hor hor hor!